Holy hell. One year since my last post: January 7, 2013. I kept meaning to get back to it and post more, but things kept coming up and motivation was squandered at every whim. I figured I’d write an update post if anyone missed me.
Before I write more, I just want to announce that life’s good. I’ve been seeing someone and she’s a good girl. Perhaps too good. Though, to be honest, I’m not sure the relationship will subsist. My desires to travel and meet other girls are so strong. I’ve told her this, but she still persists. She’s a little sweetie, but I feel that she deserves stronger commitment, and honestly, I can’t give it to her.
Y’know my ex-girlfriend that I wrote a lot about back in late 2011 and early 2012? Guess what. She had a baby last January. I still love her. I will always love her. I will always be in love with her for particularly who she was during the best years of our relationship in 2008 and 2009. I can’t believe she has a daughter. My mind has been blown ever since. That fact is just, I don’t know, realty-inducing in that it just reminds me that life moves on, no matter what, and people move on, all in different ways. Nostalgia still hits me often. I think of her often. Why shouldn’t I or why wouldn’t I? She was a major part of my life. She will always be in my heart.
I know the title of this post was written kinda comically, but here’s the deal: I’m pretty damn sure I’m a diabetic or close to being one. I’m very much involved in fitness and nutritional science, but diabetes runs in both sides of my family, and I’ve been seeing symptoms for so long now:
— Extreme fatigue after eating (particularly carb heavy meals, regardless of the source of carbs)
— Frequent urinating — multiple times an hour sometimes.
— Insane thirst ~~ I go through 10-12 16.9 ounce bottles of water a day.
— Numb fingers and foot pain. I thought my numb fingers, at one point, could have been attributed to gaming, but I haven’t played any video games in a while, so there goes that theory.
— I get stupendous cravings for sweets, randomly, to the point I feel like passing out until I finally acquiesce to my hunger. One evening I ate three bananas, three apples, a horde of raspberries and blueberries and two oranges. And I’m only mentioning the “healthy” sweet cravings in the guise of nature’s junk food, fruit, and not the awful choices.
— Random body parts become outrageously sensitive like my upper arms and shoulders and sometimes my thighs. I can’t describe the feeling, but it’s uncomfortable.
It’s a bit disconcerting. Maybe I do; maybe I don’t. Typical man-like mindset of mine: I haven’t gone to the doctor in five years and I don’t plan on going anytime soon, so, uh, yeah!
I’ll keep trucking forward.
I’ve been eating a lot of fish lately, and other things. Tilapia, salmon, almonds, broccoli and spinach. I’m also a believer in consuming red meat (unless you are a sedentary little effer) but haven’t ate much lately. I’m consuming 5,000 to 10,000 IU of vitamin D3 a day along with Life Extension’s Super K with the K2 complex.
I haven’t drank any alcohol since October 19th. I tore down 27 shots of (combined) Crystal Head vodka, Absinthe, Black Heart rum, 1800 coconut tequila and well, I reckon that’s it. It was spaced out over the course of a few hours from watching UFC, eating fried (in coconut oil) potatoes with red onions, etc. I woke up the next morning and did not have a hangover. When I was in my drunken stupor I still had the wherewithal to take two capsules of milk thistle extract and one capsule of zinc picolinate. Felt like a champ the next day, but I was tired. The 27 shots weren’t blatant. We drank out of Crystal Head shot glasses which account for 3 shots per ‘shot poured’, and we had 15 shots ingested within 20 minutes before realizing how ignorant we were (best friend/de facto brother and I).