I woke up this morning, and my eyes hurt. The sun beat down on the snow on the ground, meeting my eyes through the blinds surrounding the window, consequently blinding me.
I stood up and made my way to the kitchen to make a pot of coffee, a morning ritual. I looked outside once more, as the sun relentlessly attacked my eyes. It’s a familiar scene.
The same familiar scene that’s been happening since the beginning of time. Before you. Before me. Sunshine reflecting off of snow.
Soon enough, it will be dark. This day will be over. Another day gone by. 24 hours of your life effaced.
We are all, at some point, victims — prisoners — of our individual mind and the thoughts that it emanates.
On our best days, we — one, you — feel chirpy, indulging in our environment and embracing the materials around us, feeling an aura of confidence as we shine with the sun. We still ignore the moment, the chance to build on something greater, to accomplish, to utilize time to grow and emerge from yesterday’s pit.
On our worst days, we — one, you — resist the active choice to be happy, focusing on wanting to be happy instead of making it happen. The sun will shine off of the snow. Your eyes will burn. It hurts, and your mind is full of fuck. You will not indulge in the environment and will likely ignore the materials around you. Your only comfort zone is your likely destination, but your mind is filled with incessant pessimism, a natural reaction to the lack of balance you have self created. You ignore the moment, the chance to stop wasting your time with trivial sadness, to rise above the temporary sadness and evolve your outlook.
I see my past patterns. A circle of despair. Lingering mental questions regarding indelible past events. Mental exhaustion, fatigue, a foolish use of energy.
Grow or die. Be or be not. Something or nothing. Subsist or resist.
Your life is your domain. Free yourself from your mental dungeon. Create your own purpose by being, or allow yourself to be swallowed by negative subconsciousness. Your choice. Your life. Your domain.