— Be a lean, mean, ripped machine by May. I’m already in good, physical shape, but I’m on the precipice of being much more, if I’m willing to work hard and practice self-discipline. Anybody can do it. It just takes time, willpower and dedication. It can be done.
— Rekindle my happiness. I was so positive and optimistic in 2008-2009. What happened to that attitude? I know it’s still within me, a better me, a better man. I’m going to make it a mission to be the most optimistic person possible, no matter how much negativity and adversity is thrown my way. What doesn’t kill you only makes you stronger (at least mentally and emotionally) in the long run.
— Read more than I ever have. I read a ton of books in 2008 and 2009 (combined). I used to be enlightened and more well rounded in what I had to say or write about. Believe it or not (oh, shit, here I go again), I used to be a witty hack. Nowadays I find myself at a loss for words and in conversations with other people without anything interesting to say or add to discussions. Dude, what happened to your charm and charisma?!
— Laugh harder than ever. Laughter is something we should all be able to do each and every single day of our lives, even on our very worst days. When my father was dying, he cracked small jokes to the nurses and his doctor. He was in immense pain and found a way to joke about something regardless of the fact that he was dying. How did he do that? I don’t know, but that inspires me.
— Stop being a dickhead. In 2010 and 2011, there were times I acted like an absolute jackass. Bitterness probably fueled that attitude, but it must end. It will end.
— Live for myself. I spent the last few years living for my significant other in a relationship that ultimately did not pan out given the circumstances between she and I. The result of that was a lot of stress, grief and a horde of visible gray hair. I’m not advocating 100% selfishness, but as an adult, you are the one person who will ultimately look after yourself in terms of health and happiness. You can choose whether to be happy or how to live at the very tail end of the day.
— Absolve myself of guilt. I’ve ate myself alive with unwarranted guilt for the past two years (2010 and 2011). Guilt is a horrible feeling, especially when you shouldn’t even feel it in the first place, but I’ve found myself feeling guilty for silly reasons over the past two years. No more.
— Enjoy my youth. I’m in my 20s, so I’m still a young guy. Why the hell should I act so damn old all the time? You are only as old as you act.
Happy new year to everybody, and may 2012 be a year that you accomplish all of your wildest dreams.
I’m out for tonight (and likely all of tomorrow). Time to go watch Lesnar/Overeem (UFC), grab a bite to eat at IHOP and head out on a road trip to immerse myself in some debauchery.